I am sat here after drinking a little bit too much earlier tonight and now feeling the sick and the come down off the drink. Yes we all do it, drink too much that is. However I know a guy who drinks nothing he is T-Total and in our friendship group that takes a lot. However not one of the people in our group pressures him into drinking, this gives him my total respect.

As well as standing up for what he wants to do, he is an inspiration to me. He is a guy who has very different opinions to others opinions that often make more sence than anyhitng the media will say, and he shares these opinions, opinions that aren't the norm and hes definately not affraid to share them. Enough about him, as he already has a pretty big ego and bigging him up will just make it grow.

All this week i have been doing work experience and realising the amount of options i have after school, some that will even provide me with a fair amount of money until i go to university. Realising that after this year my life is going to completly change is such a daunting thing for a teenager to think about. Should I do an apprenticeship? Or College? Or get a job? Change is something that scares me a lot, and any change i take a while to adapt to.

All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish that we could see if we could be something
Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something

I would say that sat listening to these lyrics i simply couldn't resist writing something about them. I wish there was someone who was like this to me, and I know im time there will be. Some of Kate Nash's lyrics are truely inspirational and I really enjoy listening to her music, and wirting lyrics similar style to hers.

Lets start off with telling you, I have always wanted a blog. Something like a diary but a little bit more open. I love to write as if I am simply writing a letter to someone, and I long for a pen pal when I'm older. I'm supposing none of my friends will ever read this and I think as long as I keep it to complete strangers I'm happy with that, I can talk about anything. Its a terrible day, in my summer holidays and I am just sat looking out of the window wishing I was on a beach, or with some friends having a little bit more fun before I return for my last year in school.

In every teen girls life, including my own, boys play a major part in the social calander and once they start to mess you around you give up simple as even if you know whats best, you simply give up. Me like most girls has recently done that, but in a good way, by finding a boy who isn't such an idiot as the rest of them, someone who will be nice even if you do split up and lets face it at the age of 15 things most likely arent going to get serious. But either way, being a girl with falre I have had to let some people down in the process due to them messing me about and being a bit of a bad bunch.

Enough about boys lets get down to the stuff that makes life great. Things like the beauty of things you can capture with a camera, the relationships you make when you are in school, and the things that give you that all improtant feel of excitement. This obviously varies from person to person, and I personally have found that good gig with a good atmosphere does it for me, even if the band aren't that good. Parties are of course a close second on my list, however I am not a teen who likes to go and get very drunk just for the hell, I can have fun with out the alcohol. Though I do know many people my age that do. As i watch the news I hear of the yob culture and I hate the way that all tenns are blamed for this, as I certainly dont know anyone that would find joy out of binge drinking on the streets and then inflicint mindless vandalism and violence on innocent people of britain. And the fact that all teens are branded with this label I personally think is duisgusting.

The summer months are here but where is the good weather? Sast looking at the black clouds with the rain tapping at the window makes me feel dull and wish that there were more things that could be done to stop global warming, but as I always say, don't dwell on it live while you can. And that is what I have been doing the past few months. I realised things wont be the same and you won't always have the people you rely on most, so lvie on the edge and let things get a little out of control. And that is what my August and summer has been about, doing things I love with the people I love, even if it means getting home a goodness know what time and ending up goodness knows where, its the experience that counts.